Single father of two amazing boys down on luck....can you spare some help

Hello my name is Glenn Harrington and I'm a 36 year old father to two amazing boys and we live here in the valley in Porterville, CA. Now I grew up from a family of never having the easy financial well off with no struggles...most my family worked and others just lived off welfare. I had my first son at 19 and I've been working since I was 14...when I started my family I worked a few different jobs trying to work up to a decent paying job and Ive always been a hard worker and honestly I did well thru my life and worked for everything I had...my ex and I had our second son 2 and a half years later...my ex and I had our family together for 16years until we had a fall out and split up just about a year ago. I took it very hard and wanted to work things out and get my family back together but unfortunately she never wanted to do that and I just went down hill from working a great job as a big rig diesel salesman and to my own fault was missing work and just not being a top performer as I was for the 4years before this. They ended up letting me go and I gave everything to mother of my children and made a decision to move to Henderson, NV so I can look for a new career. When I moved it took all my savings to relocate and as I looked for a job paying bills car payment insurance loan payments credit card payments and send money to my kids while they stayed living with her. After the first month of applying places and not hearing back things started to get tight for me financially. I then landed a job with a d2d sales company that would fly you to areas across the US where they were bringing new high speed fiber optic internet to customers you didn't have it before. Now at this point once trained and flew to my first blitz sale program they called it was about almost a month and a half after moving and I was struggling...this company only paid commission no hrly which I'm a good salesman and an honest one not the type that want to just tell you what you want to hear to make the sale, I was always very transparent so I can make an honest sale and the customer feel good about their purchase....the thing about payment from the company is you only get paid 30days after the sale goes thru and the equipment was installed, which they were so busy that most installs were 2-4weeks out...so my first pay check didn't come in for about a month and a half later and then consistently 30days each time after that....I was hurting so bad financially I had my car repossessed and the bank wasn't willing to work with me on giving me time to make the payments and get the car back so I lost my vehicle that I was paying for 3 & 1/2 years on a 5 year loan, gone....once I finally got paid I had to pay some family members back for all amounts of money I borrowed to get by and make sure to get my kids taken care of once again.....I did this for about 4 months and finally I was getting back on my feet until one month the company delayed installs putting all my sales a month behind giving me no income for a month and that just put me right back down and with that I was missing my boys deeply....so i prayed with the company since it just wasn't the right fight for me and I decided to come back home since I've had some time to get over my separation and be more focused...so I came back to Porterville and was living with my brother and his wife immediately started working with my stepdad doing tree trimming work for his company but work was hit and miss and I was barley able to pay for renting my room and food thru the month and do the bare minimum to help with my boys and stuff for school and then in sports, which I didn't mention they are both fantastic athletes and play year around in basketball, football and baseball. After being back 5 months and not getting ahead I told my step father I needed to find a full time job so I can get my life back together and have my own place where my boys can spend time from my place to their mothers as they please since me and my ex don't have any issues or court papered custody issues. I've been a hard working dad and supportive partner to my ex where I was the financial supporter out whole relationship....I never asked her to help pay bills or anything cause I was raised as a man takes care of his family and at this point in life I'm feeling down and not happy with how I can't do what I use to but I don't ever give up I constantly month after month try to get ahead but I can't catch a break with one thing after another coming up paying this helping with that old bills to try catch up on to be able to get another car or rent a place on my own....now about 3 months ago I started working for a company called Valley wind Machines as a wind tower climber technician....I service the towers and motors for growers that have orchards for oranges lemons tangerines etc.....its a good job decent pay and since starting there I've slowly started to get to an ok place....I've had to pay for gas to get rides to and from work and first goal was save up to buy a car....nothing fancy just something reliable that will get me to and from work and then going to see my kids or give them rides and even to their games on days I make it in from work where I can make it to watch them....with taking care of my responsibilities and helping with my boys I was able to save up around $3700 and I found a car that was decent price and made an offer on it....the sellers agreed to meet me to see the vehicle so I can check it out test drive it and we could go from their on negotiating and see if we could make a deal....I was excited and I felt if I get this car it's a big step to getting further to making my way to next goal save up for a decent rental for myself and my boys to come stay days as they wanted between my ex and myself....so this was 2 days ago on Wednesday May 14th....I get up I go pull out cash I had which was $3,700 that was every dollar I had to be exact I had $3,700.49 in my account and the car was selling for $4,200 and I offered them $4,000 but I had borrowed $800 from a family member telling them if I can pay them back next paycheck I said my kids are asking to go to the county fair so I need about $100 to each of them and then a hundred myself for gas for the week to get back and forth to work but if I can get the sellers to come down on the price I'd give back whatever the difference and if not where I end up buying it at $4,200 I'd just do as I asked by paying them next paycheck.....so this is where things took a turn for the worse putting me back to square 1....so that morning I'm getting a ride and my friend had not much gas so of course I told him let's stop at the store I'll put $20 in it's not too far right here in town....so we stop at the store and I have to use $20 out of the $4,500 I have to help my friend who's helping me....I go in with the envelope I have the money in I pull out $20 and then walk out to go pump the gas....now I don't know for sure if this is where I lost that envelope with all my money but I have no other idea of how I could have dropped it and lost it....I'm at the pump and I get a call I go to pull out my phone which is in my back pocket of my jeans where, myself as and idiot I feel like for losing this is where I had the envelope of cash...now only thing I can think is when I pulled out my phone I didn't feel the envelope come out as well and dropped it right there answered my phone which it was the couple who's selling the car and asked if I was on the way over so I told them I'd be there in 10mins....so I set my phone down on the top of the car I finish pumping the gas grab my phone and get in my friends car and type in the address to where we needed to go....we arrive at the house and as I get out first thing I did was go to pull out the envelope and when I didn't feel it and idk how my mind didn't think of it on the drive that I wasn't sitting on a stack of cash it just didn't register but soon as I realized I didn't feel it my heart dropped I started feeling each pocket and then open the passenger door start looking all thru the car and I say in a panic we gotta go at that point the couple had seen us and was walking out the door and my buddy says what do you mean I said NOW, LETS GO BACK TO THE STORE....He says what, what happened I said I'm pretty sure I dropped my money there he jumps in fast I yell I'm sorry I'll be back and we jammed across town to the store and looked all over not seeing it I go in ask the owner if he seen me drop the envelope of money I had when I was at the register...of course he says no...I ask can you please check the cameras to see if you can watch me walk out seeing if I dropped it, please I just lost all my money I have and he looks and tells me...buddy the cameras don't work and I just lost it...I was so sad so stressed I'm looking all over the Parking lot around the pumps in the trash and at the point I knew it was gone....I had it right there and then a drive from their straight to the house of the car owners it was gone....I broke down I just felt so lost and once again no money lost my hard work savings to getting a car and now even in more debt to borrowing $800 where now it's just waisted money not getting a car and leaving my kids without money to give them a fun day going to the fair with their friends....I feel so lost so down and just back to broke and struggling til next paycheck...I feel like I just can't catch a break every time I feel I'm making steps in the right direction....worse is feeling like a let down if a father that I can't even afford to treat my kids when they deserve it....I never expect a handout or think someone should help me....but at this point right now I'm looking for any help I can just to get me back on track and get me thru these next 2 weeks where it's not gonna fix my problems but at least something where I can make it thru and continue this struggling journey to hopefully sooner than later be back on my feet. I'm not perfect I'm not acting like I've never done wrong but I can say I'm an honest hard working loving caring person and when I was doing well one thing I always loved doing was helping my friends family or someone I see in need and now I've been down awhile struggling and just wish I could get some help to make things a little easier til I can get back to being ok on e again. I hope this reaches the right person and can see I'm telling my story in a long message but I've shortened it to the point of where I'm at....I can tell a lot about myself and how I grew up and how I got well off and things I did but the point right now is I'm just in some desperate need to get back on my feet and help my kids so I can continue working and do as I have been trying say by day until I get back on my feet financially...thank you to everyone who takes the time to read this and anyone who actually does help, trust and believe it will be so much appreciated and not taken for granted...God bless everyone and take care! Friday May 16th 18:59